On the 25th March 2009, 9.45am in the morning. I received a call from my sister who supposed to be in Malaysia. She told me to go back to YongPeng as my grandma passed away. I was shocked of the news. Without mental preparation, my mind was in a total blank. I quickly arranged all my tasks to my colleagues before leaving office. Boss passed me some "Bai Jin"(White Gold) before i left the office in hurried. I reached home with baobei accompany, faster packed my clothings and wash up. Booked a cab with my cousin, i send baobei home and take the cab back to malaysia. As the cab pick up the rest of the passengers, my another cousin was actually booked the same cab with me. So all of us went back Yong Peng together.
Upon arrival at the funeral, i saw the altar of my grandma. Suddenly, i was totally breakdown. My tears dropped uncontrollable. I felt so remorse and regret. I should have joined my mum and sis to accompany my grandma with her last moment of life. I believed that she could have live longer if she was being well taken care of. As i offered joss sticks, i kneeled down, prayed that she could go to the west and become a buddha god instead of incarnation. For her entire life, she didnt really enjoyed her life. To all of us, she is the best grandma in the whole world. No one can compared to her. Her kindness, generous and blissful is well-known to everyone.
Therefore, for the next 5 days, chanting for her is a must. I have kneeled serveral hundreds of times, bearing with the pain to hoped her attain immortal. As my uncles are quite a big shot in Malaysia, being JMN of YP and PIS, a few ministers and some other MP have came and pay their offering.
Times flies fast, 5 days were up. Grandma's coffin will be buried beside grandpa. For my 25 years of life, i have never been to the grave of my grandpa. As the coffin sealed, the mood of everyone's suddenly breakdown, i tried very hard to control my emotion, but i cant. The van which carried the coffin have 2 white long clothes which all the children, grand-children and all great grandchilren have to hold and walk the village.. The weather was very hot, everyone was perspiring and panting, all of the sudden, sky turned dark, and its was drizzing, all of us believe is grandma wont want to see us suffering, therefore dark clouds and rain helps us to lighten our burden. Upon reaching hock chew association, the van drove off to the hill graveyard, and we drove up with our own vehicles.
The graveyard is at the edge of the town and was around the hill. For my grand parent's grave, its was around the hilltop already. The slope to the hilltop was very steep, probably around 75 - 80 degree... One of my cousin cars almost fall backward... I believe its was the blessing from my grandma. We prayed again and again. We turned our back and the coffin was buried into the ground. We offered our last praying and the thunder storm came. Therefore everyone quickly get back into the car and go back.
Coming back to Singapore, although everything was settled, but in our heart, we know that we cannot get it over... I really miss her.... The best 外婆 in the whole world.
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