My dearest wife, Brenda was admitted into hospital on 27 March 2010. She having complaint with shoulder and stomach/gastric pain while having lunch at Malaysia. We was about to go to batu bahat for a walk with mummy after 2nd aunt funeral. She was in a great pain til we have to gather resource to send her back to Singapore Hospital.
Mummy and me spent 600++ to get someone to lend us a car and help us drive to Singapore. We reach KK hospital at 6 plus and she was immediately inspected. I phoned for her mum to come over. She was sent to do some ultrasound scanning. Was briefed with surcharge due to after office hr. The indian nurse was not caring enough and she hurt baobei's arm quite a few times. And also i got to help her to push this and that. Seriously bad service. After all the test and inspection, doctor told us that she will be send to TTSH as this is not related to O&G related problem. They have arranged an ambulance to send baobei to TTSH. Baobei told me that the indian nurse and the indian radiology was sort of flirting inside the ultrascan room. Baobei was shouting pain and yet they can carry on chatting without concerning about baobei's condition. I wrote a feedback regarding about their shitty service. Not the first time encountering indian nurse corked up. Before we went up to ambulance, i have to settle partial bills... I didnt expected the bill will added up to 600++ with 10 tests done. This time round really fall into financial crisis liao. Left with no choice, i settle partial payment and we proceed to TTSH.

We reach TTSH at 11pm. Registered at the A&E dept. Baobei was pushed in and did some ECG testing. We waiting til 12+ before she was attended. Doctor told us that it was probably the gallstone causing the pain and the nerve at the shoulder was affected. She was given a strong painkiller and told that we can go home when the pain is gone. I didnt trust the doctor and i requested to admit baobei into the ward, luckily the doctor heed our advice. As we were told that there will be no more free bed in the C / B2 ward, we need to arrange baobei to a temporary bed which is located at a wierd corner of the ward. I requested with a all-female ward for baobei and the nurse replied ok. Baobei will only transfer to a normal bed after there is available bed. I have checked the waiting list, and there are 20++ ppl on the waiting list in front. But we got no choice, so i asked baobei and she is ok with the arrangement. So baobei was pushed up to the ward around 2am. I went to see the "temp" bed and i realised that the bed was in front of a men-ward. With all the dirty looking old fellow lying inside, i really scare and i faster complaint to the nurse. I told them i requested with a all-female ward and why they gimme such a location. They replied that the bed is in a corner with no ppl, but i keep telling them off. They seriously dun understand what is all-female ward. again, its a indian nurse again. I starting to hate them. She called and request for another bed change. In 15min time, a phone call back from the admin and we got a bed change finally. This time, its really a all-women ward, and baobei was asleep from her pain.

See her screaming in pain making me feeling unbearable. Doctor came and asked a lot of question and blah blah blah. Im seriously tired and i take a short nap. I tink baobei went for scanning again while i was asleep on the chair. Doctor told us that there is something in the stomach and they need to arrange for a operation asap. My MIL heard and she was crying. I see baobei with so many needles poked into her body, i cant help but break into tears also. She was just 21 and she got to face this kind of problem. My family members advised her so many times that she need to control her diet, her food intake and her daily activities. She dun wan to listen and yet she keep complaining and quarreling with me. For the past few months, to be frankly speaking, i trying to tolerate her. I feel that she was too sensitive on certain thing. I told baobei abt it, she was quite remorse abt it. She promised me a lot of times that she will change, but she never do it. Just really hoped this time she really will change. Cuz her action is slowly breaking my family apart.

I really scare seeing baobei in such a great pain. Telling myself not to cry, but still cant. My heard really pain, seeing her like that really making me feeling so miserable. At 5.30pm, she entered into the Operation Theatre. I went home after that to unpack while waiting phone call from hospital once the operation end. I reached home around 6.45am, mummy and sister slping at living room with baby jayden. Mummy asked me on her condition, she also sighed. She say why baobei dun want to listen to her advice, probably this will not happened. She also repremand me for not controling baobei food intake. I pack all the stuff til around 9am, where the operation is about to end. Think im too tired, i fall asleep on the bed with half of my body on the chair. 10am, FIL called and ask me rest, i was so kan chiong and heard that the operation was success. I finally can leave my mind in peace.

Went to hospital at 12, went to OT with SN tay bring me in. Saw baobei with more tube and needles in her body. I almost fainted, i guess she is really suffering. Sometime i was wondering, if initially i never met her, and we never get married, she probably wont encounter this. I was told she was operated for stomach ulcer. I only can seriously pray hard that she can get well soon...

Currently feeling: Sad

Listening to: crying from the heart

Time: 12.11AM

On the 25th March 2009, 9.45am in the morning. I received a call from my sister who supposed to be in Malaysia. She told me to go back to YongPeng as my grandma passed away. I was shocked of the news. Without mental preparation, my mind was in a total blank. I quickly arranged all my tasks to my colleagues before leaving office. Boss passed me some  "Bai Jin"(White Gold) before i left the office in hurried. I reached home with baobei accompany, faster packed my clothings and wash up. Booked a cab with my cousin, i send baobei home and take the cab back to malaysia. As the cab pick up the rest of the passengers, my another cousin was actually booked the same cab with me. So all of us went back Yong Peng together.

Upon arrival at the funeral, i saw the altar of my grandma. Suddenly, i was totally breakdown. My tears dropped uncontrollable. I felt so remorse and regret. I should have joined my mum and sis to accompany my grandma with her last moment of life. I believed that she could have live longer if she was being well taken care of. As i offered joss sticks, i kneeled down, prayed that she could go to the west and become a buddha god instead of incarnation. For her entire life, she didnt really enjoyed her life. To all of us, she is the best grandma in the whole world. No one can compared to her. Her kindness, generous and blissful is well-known to everyone.

Therefore, for the next 5 days, chanting for her is a must. I have kneeled serveral hundreds of times, bearing with the pain to hoped her attain immortal. As my uncles are quite a big shot in Malaysia, being JMN of YP and PIS, a few ministers and some other MP have came and pay their offering.

Times flies fast, 5 days were up. Grandma's coffin will be buried beside grandpa. For my 25 years of life, i have never been to the grave of my grandpa. As the coffin sealed, the mood of everyone's suddenly breakdown, i tried very hard to control my emotion, but i cant. The van which carried the coffin have 2 white long clothes which all the children, grand-children and all great grandchilren have to hold and walk the village.. The weather was very hot, everyone was perspiring and panting, all of the sudden, sky turned dark, and its was drizzing, all of us believe is grandma wont want to see us suffering, therefore dark clouds and rain helps us to lighten our burden. Upon reaching hock chew association, the van drove off to the hill graveyard, and we drove up with our own vehicles.

The graveyard is at the edge of the town and was around the hill. For my grand parent's grave, its was around the hilltop already. The slope to the hilltop was very steep, probably around 75 - 80 degree... One of my cousin cars almost fall backward... I believe its was the blessing from my grandma. We prayed again and again. We turned our back and the coffin was buried into the ground. We offered our last praying and the thunder storm came. Therefore everyone quickly get back into the car and go back.

Coming back to Singapore, although everything was settled, but in our heart, we know that we cannot get it over... I really miss her.... The best 外婆 in the whole world.